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The song that describes how I feel [
Sunday.July 19th.2009]
[ mood | mourning ]

Ever since I was young
Your word is the word that always won
Worry and wake the ones you love
A phone call I’d rather not receive
Please use my body while I sleep
My lungs are fresh and yours to keep
Kept clean and they will let you breathe
Is this the way a toy feels
When its batteries run dry

I am the watch you always wear
But you forget to wind
Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these
So I sat alone and waited out the night
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed
So I’m asking you to shine it on
And stick around
I’m not writing my goodbyes
I submit no excuse
If this is what I have to do
I owe you every day I wake

If I could I would shrink myself
Sink through your skin to your blood cells
Remove whatever makes you hurt
But I am too weak to be your cure
Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry
I am the watch you always wear
But you forget to wind
Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these
So I sat alone and waited out the night
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed
So I’m asking you to shine it on
And stick around
I’m not writing my goodbyes
I’m not letting you check out
You will beat this starting now
You will always be around

I’m there to monitor your breathing
I will watch you while you’re sleeping
I will keep you safe and sound
Does anybody remember back when you were very young
Did you ever think that you would be this blessed
Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these
So I sat alone and waited out the night
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed
So I’m asking you to shine it on
And stick around
I’m not writing my goodbyes

Brand New - Guernica

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[
Thursday.February 19th.2009]
[ mood | okay ]
[ music | Straylight Run - The Tension And The Terror ]

So yeah.. Stopped using LJ a while ago in favor of Melo, but a new and very close friend of mine uses LJ so I decided to hop back on for a little bit.

Reading back from when I moved is filling in the time nicely during my shift.

Pains in our relationship from before the move are coming back and smacking Skip and I in the face.

But yeah.. *waves*

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[
Thursday.February 19th.2009]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | Astronautalis - Two Years Before The Mast ]

Meme About My Lover )

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[
Saturday.November 29th.2008]
[ mood | relaxed ]
[ music | Silverchair - Israel's Son ]

So we're in California now. )

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Dear Yes on 8 supporters... [
Monday.November 10th.2008]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | We Are Scientists - Chick Lit ]

This goes for Florida too. All you Yes on 2 supporters. The following is a repost from a repost. My friend, Julie, found it on Facebook. It explains every single last sentiment I have, and then some. It's very well written, and I think everyone should read it.

Hey there. I’m going to go out on a limb here that most of you are feeling pretty proud of yourselves right now, patting each other on the back for your near victory of 3%. It must feel good to win huh? God knows I would be proud too if I wok up to find that my vote had such an impact on thousands upon thousands of people. I must say, I’d be pretty elated over the defeat of the US’s strides for separation of church and state, the victory over the very things our fore fathers fought and died for –the things our country was founded on, Yes, I have to say, I’d be pretty enthralled with myself for the devastation of an enormous group of people, but I’m not.

I’m not because I voted no to legal discrimination; no to the idea that a religiously founded belief and opinion should have any say in the legal constitution which rules over other people who may not have the same beliefs. I voted no because I felt there was a greater need for human equality and compassion than the whims of an organized religion that practices intolerance and promotes the sub-human treatment of a group of people. I voted no because I could not bring myself to believe in the hypocrisy of a love that would deny people fundamental rights supposedly granted to everyone.

But I suppose that does matter to you, does it? I bet it never did.

Well I hope you’re happy with yourselves now. I hope you can look into the mirror and say how happy you are to emotionally devastate hundreds of thousands of people and their loved ones. I hope you can look in the mirror and say how proud you are to treat another group of people with substandard subhuman notions for reasons they cannot change. And I HOPE you can look at yourself and feel just FINE with the fact that your vote has such emotionally scarring ramifications that people (your neighbors, your coworkers, you family members and possibly friends) might kill themselves because of it. That they would rather take their own life then live in a world YOU chose for them.

I hope you can think about that and smile without flinching.

Take pride in being a bigot, because you are. Disagree? The definition of a bigot is a person who is utterly intolerant of any differing creed, belief, or opinion. Utterly intolerant, as in, so intolerant that you cannot stand to allow a marriage between two people who you don’t deem acceptable for your definition of marriage. Can’t argue that, can you?

And maybe you don’t understand the weight of what you’ve done because you were taught to believe that being different is NOT ok. Or maybe because you never had to fight for the same rights as your neighbor, your fellow US citizen.. your fellow human being.

But that’s no excuse.

What you have done was hurtful and inexcusable. It was a choice based on unjust fear and selfishness. Fear of what you don’t understand and cannot relate to. Selfishness of worrying over what this means for you, what this might do to YOU or your soul instead of what this means for your fellow man and woman.

And don’t pretend this was for the children because 300 pediatricians told you otherwise. Because of your vote, children who are already being raised by gay parents now have their chance for an economically stable environment ruined. Children who had the chance to be adopted by gay married parents, who OBIVOUSLY wanted them more than their heterosexual birth parents, will now suffer as well.

And as for YOUR children…gay marriage was never going to be taught in schools and you knew it. The California super attendant for schools and the Teachers Associations told you so. This was never about church rights, everyone told you otherwise. In fact, just about every large newspaper, major company head, California leader and our current US President told you it was WRONG and you voted for it anyway.

This was never about anyone but you and your fear.

Fear so strong that you would be willing to deny people the right to be above subhuman just to keep yourself “safe”. I have never seen a bigger hypocritical unprecedented discriminatory injustice short of the Rwanda genocide and the Hate crime killings in my time.

And don’t try and console me with domestic partnership because it is NOT the same a marriage. You only have 30 rights in a domestic partnership vs the 177 in marriage. Would YOU want to give up your other 147 rights because another religion said they didn’t agree with your marriage? Would YOU want a domestic partnership instead of a marriage if you knew that the domestic partnership could be dissolved if you ever decided to live under a different roof as your partner for whatever reason (work related or not)?

Would you want to have to wait 7 years in some cases before you’re even granted these simple 30 rights?

I’m going to take a stab at this and say you wouldn’t. So if you wouldn’t revoke your marriage for a domestic partnership (or take a domestic partnership instead of a marriage) then why would you demand that of anyone else? You should never ask someone to do something you, yourself, are no willing to do.

That’s equality. Justice, liberty and freedom for ALL.

How dare you spit in the face of that because of something you feel is a sin.

You want to know what REAL sin is? REAL sin is taking away someone’s free agency – their right to choose.

If you take away someone’s right to choose to keep or not keep their processions (theft) that’s a sin. If you take away someone’s choice to fornicate with you or not (rape) that’s a sin. If you take away someone’s right to choose life or death (murder) that’s a sin.

And if you take away someone’s right to marry for no other good reason than you’re afraid, that’s a sin.

If the churches don’t want to sanctify the marriages, that’s their religious freedom. If GOD doesn’t want to sanctify the marriages, then he/she won’t. But it’s NOT your RIGHT to take away MY rights as a human being because you don’t agree with my life style which ISN’T hurting anyone else.

I have every right to marry who I love within reasonable standards. I have every right be as legally and financially safe as anyone else. I have the right to every one of those marriage privileges as anyone else and it’s being taken away from me. Not because I committed a crime. Not because I gave up my own free agency.

But because of my sexuality, because of something so fundamentally apart of myself that I cannot change it no matter what you say or do. No amount of therapy will change that.

This is human cruelty. This is what the bible was really preaching against.

And I love my spouse just as much as the next man does, or should, and I’m proud to call her my wife. I want to tell everyone I’m happily married and I fought hard to be with her. I want the right to say I’m married, to go to the hospital and check the married section instead of having to check the single. To check married on my taxes instead of having to file single. To not HAVE to explain to my employer or anyone else how I can be married but still have to legally claim single.

I want my future children to be safe if something should happen to either of us. I wan my possessions, my property, my belongings to be passed on to my spouse, my wife. Yes, I even want my insurance to carry.

And when the time comes for it, I want to be laid down next to the one I loved when I am buried.

How could that possibly hurt you?

Sincerely,

Mrs. Winter

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[
Tuesday.October 21st.2008]
[ mood | fed up ]
[ music | Bloc Party - Banquet (Phones Disco Edit) ]

Quote of the century:

"I believe that banking institutions are more dangerous to our liberties than standing armies. If the American people ever allow private banks to control the issue of their currency, first by inflation, then by deflation, the banks and corporations that will grow up around the banks will deprive the people of all property until their children wake-up homeless on the continent their fathers conquered."

-- Thomas Jefferson 1802

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[
Thursday.October 9th.2008]
[ mood | working ]
[ music | Interpol - NYC ]

Silly survey to get to know my friends )

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[
Tuesday.October 7th.2008]
[ mood | energetic ]
[ music | Radiohead - Creep (Acoustic) ]

THIS MAN IS MY FAVORITE WEAPON!



He is my BN brother, and words cannot express how shitty I feel for leaving him in the dump most people call North Lauderdale, FL.

Best friends (definitely does) mean friends forever.

And, bitch, I am not severing ANY FUCKING TIES WITH YOU!!!!!

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[
Friday.September 26th.2008]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | Savage Garden - A Thousand Words ]

Cut for romantic cuteness overload )

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[
Friday.September 12th.2008]
[ mood | hungry ]
[ music | Radiohead - Permanent Daylight ]

Sex Orientation Quiz )

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[
Thursday.September 4th.2008]
[ mood | melancholy ]
[ music | Audiovent - The Energy ]

RIP Rosemary. You were a joy to work with. I will miss your random snacks and lovely smile.

And your overly cute cubicle.

Yes, I was one of the critters that you fed, and now I'm one of the broken-hearted hearing of your passing.

I will do my best to celebrate the time I spent working with you, rather than mourn your death.

When I grow older, may I be as classy and as sweet as you are.

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[
Wednesday.March 19th.2008]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | Radiohead - Stop Whispering ]

We move in Sunday, March 30th, 2008. He called them this morning. The only unit they have available is the model we looked at. That works. As long as they have a unit available in the next 2 weeks, it's all good for me.

So.. Who wants to help us move?

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[
Tuesday.March 4th.2008]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | The Cure - To The Sky ]

Insert knife and twist here!

Ex: ugh. Ronny has NO taste in music
Ex: it amazes me how he can be a business genius, and listen to braindead music
me: same way you can have great taste in music and make some dumb choices
me: balance of life


Pwned again.

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[
Monday.March 3rd.2008]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | Berlin - Scream ]

Skip and I were just approved for an apartment! We move in May or June, depending on finances.

We already found all of the furniture for the apartment. We still need to decide on some things, but most of it is done now, so that we can budget for it now.

Wow. It hits me every single day how much I love this guy. I'm actually getting my own place with him. We're both going to be on the lease. He even just opened up the bank account we'll be using to pay bills with.

This is really happening. Am I really that grown? I own my car, getting a lease with my boyfriend, and maintaining my full time job. How many of my "friends" have this? How many of them that do are still happy?

But yeah.. Just in case, here's the list of furniture we're getting. )

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[
Friday.February 22nd.2008]
[ music | Placebo - Teenage Angst ]

I CAN HAS NEW PHONE!!!! Thank you so much, bonus check. I loves you! =]





Oh. My. Gosh. SOOOOOOOOOOO much better than the MDA!!!

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[
Tuesday.February 19th.2008]
[ mood | Sick... ]
[ music | Smashing Pumpkins - Muzzle ]

Picture Meme )

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[
Thursday.February 7th.2008]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Smashing Pumpkins - An Ode To No One ]

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[
Thursday.January 31st.2008]
[ mood | I'm sick. =/ ]
[ music | American Hi-Fi - Message In A Bottle ]

To appease the dress code nazis at work, I bought some clothes online that, I believe, abide by the dress code here.

From Aeropostale:





And from Forever 21:



I should invest in some lacy camis as well. We'll see what happens.

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[
Wednesday.January 30th.2008]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | Bloc Party - Plans ]

Today equals the ultimate fail.

No, going to work under car stress, money stress and family stress isn't enough. Oh hell no.

Let's add work stress into the mix.

Here's a call to Verio: Everyone e-mail my supervisor and let them know what a piece of shit employee I really am.

Meeting case quota EVERYDAY while maintaining awesome quality scores ISN'T ENOUGH TO PROVE THAT I'M A DECENT EMPLOYEE! Oh HELL NO!

Let's attack what I wear and how I act?!

How is my behavior at work any less than professional? Who am I pissing off by being me?

I can name a few names, but I'd rather not. People, just do your damn jobs and leave me the fuck alone.

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Due to a talk at work about religion.. [
Wednesday.January 23rd.2008]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Jack Johnson - Taylor ]

I believe that I am my own God. Therefore I sin when I do wrong by myself. There is always more for me to learn to make myself a better person for me. My friends, family, and the world all have influences on the person I am and the person I will become. Though only I can make the choice on whether that person is doing the right or wrong thing.

The top score on the list below represents the faith that Belief-O-Matic, in its less than infinite wisdom, thinks most closely matches your beliefs. However, even a score of 100% does not mean that your views are all shared by this faith, or vice versa.

Belief-O-Matic then lists another 26 faiths in order of how much they have in common with your professed beliefs. The higher a faith appears on this list, the more closely it aligns with your thinking.


1. Neo-Pagan (100%)
2. Unitarian Universalism (95%)
3. New Age (93%)
4. Mahayana Buddhism (90%)
5. Theravada Buddhism (77%)
6. Liberal Quakers (77%)
7. New Thought (73%)
8. Hinduism (72%)
9. Scientology (71%)
10. Secular Humanism (66%)
11. Taoism (64%)
12. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (62%)
13. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (57%)
14. Sikhism (57%)
15. Jainism (55%)
16. Reform Judaism (53%)
17. Orthodox Quaker (40%)
18. Nontheist (35%)
19. Bahá'í Faith (34%)
20. Orthodox Judaism (25%)
21. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (22%)
22. Seventh Day Adventist (18%)
23. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (17%)
24. Eastern Orthodox (15%)
25. Islam (15%)
26. Roman Catholic (15%)
27. Jehovah's Witness (11%)

Link to quiz

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